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About Brian
Alexis and Brian; a note by Alexis
Last year during school, I had noticed Brian Shaffer. It was hard not to, as he was one of the most beautiful people that I had ever seen. I had noticed that Brian had given me some extra long looks as well, but I thought I was seeing things. How lucky could I really be that someone I actually had a crush on had a crush on me too? After about a month, while I was home at my little brother's graduation party, I happened to check my email, and I had one from Brian! He wrote to me that he thought I was beautiful and he loved my smile, and he wanted to know if I would want to go to dinner with him sometime. He gave me his phone number, and said that if I didn't want to call, that was OK, but he really hoped that I would. So, of course, I did, and the next night after returning to Columbus, Brian came to my door to pick me up. I remember looking through my peep hole and having to stifle a yell of excitement because he was really on the other side! He came in and his hands were shaking. That week was the last week of our first year in medical school, and every day we came up with a way to see each other. Most of the time, it was just to study together. One night, he surprised me at my apartment just to say hi. I couldn't believe it because I had my glasses on and my pajamas, but he told me later that I couldn't have been more beautiful. After our test was over that Friday, that was the end of school for us. I got to spend the next day with him shopping and eating dinner and seeing Mr. and Mrs. Smith at the movie theater. We also realized that when I was in elementary school, for a couple of years we had lived in the same place and I had known his brother. We had even had the same tennis coach at different times in our respective home towns. It was a magical day! The next day, I went home, and then he left to go to Puerto Rico for a medical trip. He was gone for 4 weeks, and two days before he returned home I had to leave to go on a trip to Romania for 3 weeks. So, for those 7 weeks, we talked on the phone as much as we could and sent so many emails back and forth. Then, finally, it was time for me to come home, and Brian picked me up from the airport. I had never been so nervous! I shook like a leaf between Detroit and Columbus! When Brian picked me up, he gave me a big hug, and was so excited to tell me that he had prepared for my return by buying some Romanian music and finding some "girly" shampoo so I wouldn't have to root through my apartment I had hastily moved into before I left for Europe. All I thought was how lucky to have the guy of my dreams be this sweet and wonderful! So, from that day on, for 7 months we were inseparable. We studied together, went to class together (but sat with our own friends), we at lunch everyday together, and we talked about the spending the rest of our lives together. There were so many times that Brian would look up and say "lets go get married now!" and I'd laugh and tell him to talk to my dad, and he'd lean over and kiss me and tell me how much he loved me. We talked about having kids together one day. We even looked at engagement rings a couple of months ago. More than that, Brian is my best friend. Unfortunately, Brian's mom had been in the hospital for most of our relationship, so that was how I got to know her. She was an incredible person, and I enjoyed spending the time with her that I could. Brian and I would go over to see her in the hospital and eat lunch with her after our classes, and just talk about school and what was going on with our friends and family. I remember when she passed away, I was standing next to Brian in her room holding his hand, I was so saddened by losing someone I thought was going to be my friend forever. And now I'm terrified that I have lost the person I thought would be my whole world forever. I miss him with all my heart. I still dream about him every night and every day, when I wake up, my heart breaks again because I realize it was just a dream and he's not here... I miss him so much!!!! Please, please, please, help me find Brian!
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